thedemonmagnet | For Saffron

Easing was good. Faith had just taken and he had to admit, he liked Helen's method better. She was good at this.

He slowly got the hint, but was still timid to do more then hold her at the moment. The kissing was working well for him and he let himself enjoy the moment.

Then Xander took a deep breath and traced his fingers slowly down her back, feeling out the bumps of her spine. Simple and slow, to gain his confidence and to make sure he wasn't going to hurt her in the process.

Edited 2009-05-04 02:47 (UTC)

He was being so careful with her, so sweet, and given the circumstances behind his actions it endeared him to her even more. She wanted, though, to show him that he could be bold. She was patient enough to take the time to do it right, without scaring him off in the process.

She traced his lower lip with her finger before kissing him again, softly. "It's okay, honey," she assured him softly. "I won't break. I'm a lot less fragile than I look." She left it at that, though, didn't guide his hands into a more aggressive touch as she might have done with someone else. She just kissed him again, giving another gentle tilt of her hips.

Xander bit his lip at her encouragement, just taking a moment to think past his mental block. Helen wasn't Faith. He was fairly sure that she wasn't going to kill him. She kept insisting he wouldn't hurt her. She was the expert, so she had to be right about this stuff, right?

The tilt of her hips caused him make another small noise in the back of his throat and after taking a deep breath, he began to, carefully, let his hands move about her body, one coming up to rubs her shoulders, while the other went down towards her stomach and butt, just touching. Small steps.

Saffron let out a quiet hum of approval as Xander's hands moved. She sat snuggled against him, letting him feel his way, and did a little exploration of her own with her lips and hands to all of him she could reach.

After a little while she slid off his lap with a smile, crawled up the bed and laid back. "C'mere," she said softly, beckoning him with the crook of one finger.

This touching thing really wasn't so bad, as his movements did get slightly bolder. Though he didn't venture into any hot spots. Not yet. Back, sides, stomach, shoulders...those were good for a start.

Of course when she moved up on the bed, this was different. Last time, he'd been thrown down on the bed and that had been really been it. So as he crawled up to join Helen, it was clear he wasn't sure what he was doing.

When Xander reached her Saffron pulled him gently down to her, positioning herself so she was halfway beneath him. "Relax," she told him in a soothing voice, brushing a hand through his hair. "We're not in any hurry. This is for your enjoyment, so...enjoy. Don't be afraid to try anything you want. I'm here to help you, and to make this amazing for you."

Xander closes his eyes, taking a deep breath as he slightly leaned into the touch to his hair. Relax. He could do that. Helen was safe, this was all good...

"I hate to sound totally pathetic, but anything with me not dying will be pretty amazing." He tried to make it sound like a joke, despite being completely serious. When he opened his eyes, he looked down at Helen, and for the moment, just smile gratefully as he considered what to do next with the permission he'd been given.

"I promise, there won't be any dying going on," Saffron replied, returning Xander's smile. She planned to raise that particular standard of his considerably by the time they were through. "Only pleasure." She slid her hand down his side until she reached the waistband of his jeans, where she slipped a couple of fingers beneath.

Licking his lips, Xander fought not to gasp as her fingers slipped under his waistband. Despite his night time occupation, he was hesitant to take his clothes off in this instance, but despite his hesitation, he brought a hand down to undo his fly and let his jeans slide down his hips.

"Pleasure is good." His voice was soft and breathless as he looked down at her, almost asking permission to work on her remaining clothes as well. Might as well get the obvious obstacle over with.

Saffron recognized the look and was even more pleased by it than usual, because it meant that Xander was making progress. She helped him off with his jeans and underwear, then once she was beneath him again she leaned up and kissed him before taking his hand and guiding it to the clasp of her bra, giving him the permission he'd been seeking with that look.

With another deep breath for courage, Xander unclasped her bra and make short work of both bra and underwear. You didn't work in a strip club with no real changing room without picking up something.

For a few long moments, he just looked. Helen was beautiful. She was so strong yet her skin looked soft and he tentatively touched it to see if it really was.

It was.

Again first asking with his eyes, he moved his hand up to her chest, his touches tentative at first but slowly they grew bolder. He'd only ever touched Cordy's breasts through her clothes and Faith hadn't let him touch hers, so he was very curious.

Saffron let Xander look and feel to his heart's content, leaving it no secret through soft pleased hums and eyes that fluttered closed every now and then how his touch was affecting her. She wrapped one leg loosely around him, her foot sliding up his calf.

Xander took courage from her reactions and touched as much as he could, in soft petting motions at first but soon he was feeling with more eagerness and want, seeing what reactions they earned him.

After exploring her chest and stomach with his hands for a little while, he grew bolder, and kissed her shoulder. Then slightly lower on her chest. Then just between her breasts, eyes darting up to continue gauging reactions.

God, she wanted more of him, but she was patient, and willing to wait and let him set the pace. There was a time for aggression, but this wasn't it.

"Your lips feel so good on my skin," she said, the words practically a sigh as she lightly gripped his upper arms.

At her words, Xander looked up with a bashful smile, dark hair falling in his eyes. In answer to her, he just leaned down and kissed the soft skin of her breast, continuing his exploring kisses until he reached the peak. The change in the texture of the skin was fascinating and while he kissed one nipple, he lifted his other hand to test the change in texture under his finger tips.

Saffron inhaled sharply through her teeth as Xander reached her nipple and a jolt of arousal shot through her. She lifted one hand, threaded it through his hair without guiding. The fingers of her other hand tightened around his arm as she arched her back just slightly, lifting her breast to his lips in silent encouragement.

He concentrated on just touching and tasting for a moment as if giving in to her encouragement before finally venturing lower. Down a taunt stomach with his lips and trim sides with his fingers, still slow and searching. Feeling out every bit of skin he'd dreamed about. When he got to her belly button, he stopped and looked up at her, fear creeping into his eyes for a moment at the idea of going any lower.

When he looked up at her she smiled reassuringly, running a palm gently along the side of his face. "It's okay," she said softly. "Take it one step at a time, and just do what you feel."

Nodding slowly, Xander moved back up so he could kiss her for a moment to get his bearings again before admitting, "I'm kinda of at a lose for what's next."

Saffron smiled and brought his lips back down to hers for another kiss. "Then why don't you let me take over for a while, and you can just lay back and enjoy," she suggested, and twisted while pushing gently against his shoulders to get him to turn over onto his back.

Letting her guide his body to where she wanted it, Xander had to fight a shudder at being in a familiar position. On his back in the bed, just as he had been when he'd been ridden and when he'd been choked. But Helen wasn't Faith and Xander just took a deep breath to relax, before leaning up to kiss her again, as if proving that fact to himself.

She sensed the change in him, even though he was doing a fairly good job of covering it up. Returning the kiss, she shifted around to straddle him, all her movements gentle and unhurried.

Saffron started working her way along Xander's jaw, lingering to lightly nibble his earlobe before kissing down his neck. "You make me really hot," she praised softly between kisses, continuing to work her way downward, her hands sliding down his arms.

Gentle was good. Unhurried was even better. It let Xander center himself and stay in the moment instead of letting himself hide in past memories. He kept his eyes on Helen and that seemed to be working.

After experiencing it already, Xander couldn't help reaching up to touch her sides, fingers just feeling to prove this was real. "Yeah?" He asked softly, the kiss to his neck making him a bit breathless.

"Mmmm-hmmm," she hummed, pausing what she was doing to move back up and press her lips to his in a kiss that was a little more intense than the previous ones, passionate in a way that expressed desire but not dominance. "Very."

She moved downward again, making sure to slide tantalizingly against him as she did so, and continued kissing her way along his body, down and down until her lips brushed the sensitive spot where his hip met his leg.

Kissing was still very of the good and wow...the kiss left him a little breathless and feeling a bit of the rush he got when he was on stage.

Xander moaned softly at each soft kiss, but specializing when Helen got to his hip. "Oh...that feels good..." He never imagined anything could feel like this, so warm and special. "This is amazing..."

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