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Oct. 15th, 2009 08:53 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
This was not a conversation Xander wanted to have and it took everything he had to put one foot in front of the other as he made his way to Spike's cave. He didn't think anything could be worse then the conversation when Spike's son was born, but at least then he hadn't been afraid of loosing Spike. Now...now he didn't know what to think and honestly, he wouldn't blame Spike at all if he wasn't his choice. It was Buffy and Xander knew how much Spike loved her. It wasn't like they'd expressed anything close to that to each other so...
Taking a deep breath, Xander tried not to think about it while at the same time preparing himself for the conversation ahead as he called out, "Spike?" once he neared the entrance of the cave.
Taking a deep breath, Xander tried not to think about it while at the same time preparing himself for the conversation ahead as he called out, "Spike?" once he neared the entrance of the cave.
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Date: 2009-10-16 02:19 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2009-10-16 02:36 am (UTC)"Buffy's here." Xander blurted out, his hands up between them, before he lost his nerve and he knew that if he moved even an inch towards Spike he'd lose it in favor of Spikey-goodness.
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Date: 2009-10-16 02:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-16 02:59 am (UTC)"What in the island's name are you talking about? She just got here today and she's back in her old room in my hut. And yeah she was talking odd, she was from my future so their was some miscommunication at first and are you okay?
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Date: 2009-10-16 03:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-16 03:09 am (UTC)Finally, after hugging his arm to his chest, he said softly, "She's from a little before you, same general time just without the whole end of Sunnydale part. She wasn't even shocked I had two eyes." It was a start.
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Date: 2009-10-16 03:46 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-16 03:52 am (UTC)"Spike," Xander paused to take a deep breath, "If Buffy is from when you and her... You could have that again. If you wanted. I'm sure if you talked to her...you could work something out." He wasn't making any sense but he was fighting the part that didn't want to. He was trying to do the right thing here.
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Date: 2009-10-16 07:24 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-10-16 11:07 am (UTC)It wasn't like they'd made any promises or declarations to each other. If anything, things had been awkward more then it had been comfortable, due to various things. But still...taking a small step back away from Spike was one of the hardest things he'd ever done. Xander didn't want to give Spike up but who was he kidding? If Spike had to choose between the Slayer and a just Scooby, why shouldn't he pick the better option? And it would be easier to just get it over with now, instead of prolonging the heart break. Not that Xander wasn't used to it of course but this time, he was okay with it. As long as Spike was happy.
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Date: 2009-10-17 12:29 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2009-10-17 12:59 am (UTC)"Xander, you make me happy," he said slowly, patiently.
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Date: 2009-10-17 01:07 am (UTC)Instead, it was just a small, wondering "Oh." He hadn't seriously considered this possibility so now he was a bit lost for thoughts and words.
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Date: 2009-10-17 11:27 pm (UTC)"I'm sorry," He whispered against Spike's mouth, "I just...I had to be sure."
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